I took up knitting something like six years ago, I think it was - saw a book on knitting in a catalogue and thought, Hmmm, maybe I should teach myself to knit. So I basically did, with some false starts, using books and websites. I never got to the point of doing intricate stitches, and I can't seam things to save my life, but four years ago I managed to make a sweater for Jerry. And here he is modeling it. (Those doors lead out to a screened-in porch. This spring I went to Sears and bought a couple of chaises for the porch so Jerry and I could sit out there comfortably as he dealt with the side effects of the cancer and the treatments, so he could enjoy the fresh air while still reclining and resting and regaining his strength. He got to sit out on a chaise exactly once. I think I've posted the picture I took of him that day already and already told this story.)
I don't know if I'll go back to knitting. Right now I can't bring myself to. I have pieces of a hoodie that need to be seamed, and the hood needs to be knitted onto it, but I was starting that sweater in February 2009. I remember sitting in the waiting room at St. Alexius, knitting the beginnings of that sweater, while Jerry was having a colonoscopy. A colonoscopy that told him he was fine. Just like the sigmoidoscopy 8 months after that that also told him he was fine. Unlike the sigmoidoscopy three months after that that told him he had what turned out to be stage IV cancer.
So yeah... not much wanting to knit now. I just associate it too much with my life with Jerry, that life I would give anything to have back again (I was going to make him another pair of slippers, since the first pair I made him came out kind of wonky. I was such a slow, distractable knitter that I never did it. The yarn for those is still upstairs in a bin). Maybe someday I'll go back to it. But not now.
A bit of TV, I think, and then to bed. Blood draw in the morning. Don't like them, never have... but after all that Jerry endured this year, don't much care what they do to me.
It's beautiful, and he wears it well. Did it bring out the color in his eyes? To me looking at this picture on-line (so, like your massage therapist I may be misreading things), it brings out a boyishness in him.
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