29 June 2010

First Dream

Jerry appeared in my dreams for the first time last night since he died.  I don't remember much: just that he was home and someone wanted to put a Foley catheter back in, and I was upset because I thought it would hurt him, but then it had been done and hadn't caused him more pain.  That's it.

The death certificate lists three causes of death: metastatic colon cancer, acute renal failure, and pleural effusion.  Short, clinical words to stand in for so much suffering.

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