Thing 1: NY is home. Just returned from a week there, and that old feeling I always got when Jerry and I were there, of not wanting to leave it, was in full force. A good sign. A very good sign, and I had no idea going in whether or not it would be there. It was.
Thing 2: If you miss a morning Southwest flight to LaGuardia, the next one isn't for another five hours.
Thing 3: I can actually afford an apartment there... it just depends on which part of there I look at. My old haunt, the Upper West Side? Not so much. Sunnyside, one of my ancestral homelands? Yes indeedy, and Sunnyside turns out to be a neighborhood I can see myself living in. It beat out Washington Heights (the other one I looked at in the past week) - the Heights were nice, and I thought that would work until my father and I went to his old neighborhood in Queens, which just seemed more alive, more diverse, more like a place I could call home.
Thing 3: My legs still work. I walked more in the past week than I have in the past two years, and it felt really good.
Thing 4: The Zoloft might be working. I've felt far less despondent in recent days than I had been feeling. Zoloft + NYC? Zoloft + a major decision really made now?
Thing 5: I'm still feeling totally overwhelmed by all that I have to do, all those minor things like getting the home I shared with Jerry onto the market, packing up and moving halfway across the country, finding a place in NY and going through that entire fun process, oh, and finding a job. And doing those things in the proper order.
Thing 6: I'd better be able to get local coverage of Bulls games once I'm in NY. Can't do without Neil and Stacey.
Anyway... I'm planning to return to NY in April for apartment-hunting.
Nothing like finding your way home. That plus exercise plus Zoloft equals a new outlook on life. I like the way all that adds up.
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