On the anniversary date of my spouse's death lighting a candle of remembrance provides light for focusing on good memories. And smiles.
Today I will light a candle for you and Jerry.
My good news is that today a respectable offer was made on the house. It's hard to believe that this has happened, now more than two years since my spouse died.
That I will soon be able to focus on living elsewhere seems amazing. Not easy leaving the place we shared for so many, many years raising our children. But making room in my life for more requires leaving. Making this part of a past life requires leaving.
Somehow I think he would be pleased. My first real adventure with him in my heart.
Here's hoping no glitches appear in the sale. But nothing worse than losing my spouse can happen so I know I can deal.
I've survived this far.
So have you!
I hope you take pride in what you have accomplished. Doing what you are doing by yourself isn't easy. For myself, just thinking about packing, etc., is so scary (I think a storage unit is in my future).
And in the midst of course today there are triggers of grief and tears.
Just wanted to let you know something is occurring that is unexpected since my house has a buyer. Since I was told their inspection went well a great sense of relief has come as an old house I believe can hold surprises. Thankfully no surprises! Unexpectedly the relief has been accompanied by a desire to move forward, get another place and leave all this work behind. There is optimism! Never expected this as sadness sometimes derailed my commitment. But now it is possible to imagine living someplace else, someplace different for the first time since he died.
I am so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteOn the anniversary date of my spouse's death lighting a candle of remembrance provides light for focusing on good memories. And smiles.
Today I will light a candle for you and Jerry.
My good news is that today a respectable offer was made on the house. It's hard to believe that this has happened, now more than two years since my spouse died.
That I will soon be able to focus on living elsewhere seems amazing. Not easy leaving the place we shared for so many, many years raising our children. But making room in my life for more requires leaving. Making this part of a past life requires leaving.
Somehow I think he would be pleased.
My first real adventure with him in my heart.
Here's hoping no glitches appear in the sale. But nothing worse than losing my spouse can happen so I know I can deal.
I've survived this far.
So have you!
I hope you take pride in what you have accomplished. Doing what you are doing by yourself isn't easy. For myself, just thinking about packing, etc., is so scary (I think a storage unit is in my future).
And in the midst of course today there are triggers of grief and tears.
Tears of sadness and joy and thankfulness.
Virtual hugs come your way.
Just wanted to let you know something is occurring that is unexpected since my house has a buyer. Since I was told their inspection went well a great sense of relief has come as an old house I believe can hold surprises. Thankfully no surprises! Unexpectedly the relief has been accompanied by a desire to move forward, get another place and leave all this work behind.
ReplyDeleteThere is optimism! Never expected this as sadness sometimes derailed my commitment. But now it is possible to imagine living someplace else, someplace different for the first time since he died.
What a relief.
This will work. I am optimistic!
I wish the same for you.
(((HUGS))) I know that even after two years the pain is still fresh and raw. I hope that you are finding some peace. Sending you my love...
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