I hadn't realized it's been so long since I've written here, and to those of you who've contacted me wondering how I'm doing (and those of you who've just been wondering), deepest apologies for the silence. It's been a rough month, and work continues to try to deal with things. So far I've been very, very happy with my new therapist, not quite as thrilled with the psychiatrist, but we'll see how that goes and whether or not changing to a different one is warranted. Still working on medication levels, still working on getting insurance idiocy sorted out, still dealing with a bizarrely dysfunctional workplace (but with coworkers who make going there worthwhile - we have all mentioned how nice it would be if we could all be lifted en masse to a saner place to work). Realized this week I'm paying almost 1/4 of my salary on gas for my commute, which adds to the insanity and propelled me into my boss's office to discuss the lots and lots of extra things I'm being given to do and the lowness of my salary. (Later that same day, worst panic attack I've had in a while. Coincidence? Probably not... not good at confrontation. Boss didn't give me any kind of concrete response, by the way. Have been wisely counseled to write down summary of "meeting" and all my duties and send it to him with a "thank you for meeting with me" note, if nothing else to have to show to a future potential employer in lieu of possible absence of recommendation from the current one.)
In other news, I've started running, or "running," as I prefer to call it, and just yesterday seem to have agreed to do a 5K in just over a month. Talk about motivation (the desire not to make a fool of myself as I rather did in the previous four 5K races I've finished in my life is strong...). Right now it seems impossible, but it's a goal. Other news, have become a big Chicago Bulls/Derrick Rose et al. fan in recent weeks - finally found my Auburn football/Cam Newton replacements, better late in the season than never. And today, with my parents in town for the weekend, we went off to Best Buy and I bought a 21st-century replacement for my 14-year-old television, with installation and switch over to AT&T U-verse, and a fond farewell to my landline telephone, next weekend.
So... still here, still muddling through life, still trying to get a handle on what happens after the world ends. And thank you, all y'all, for your care and concern.
I'm so happy to see another post from you! I didnt know if the lack of posts was good or bad, but hoped it meant things were moving along okay. On another note, Erich starts his new position as a u-verse installer today.
ReplyDeleteKaren, I *do* think of you, and it's good to hear that even if you're not doing entirely okay, you are doing, and living, and struggling, and, hey, standing up for yourself. That's a good one. Thanks for continuing to share as you can.
ReplyDelete--Kelly